Miscarriage

I realize that my pregnancy will be news to some. The reality is we just weren't pregnant long enough to share our news with everyone. I would have been 7 weeks today. I called the doctor Monday because I was bleeding. Went in for blood work to check my HCG levels. Felt hopeful at that point. Tuesday brought more bleeding, but lab results came back positive. Despite the results, I'm beginning to doubt. That night I was in pain. Woke up about 3:30 and knew I was bleeding heavily. Up for about 30 minutes. Called the doctor's office the next morning and had an appointment that afternoon.

Thoughts on miscarriages:
They are painful.
They are more common than you'd think. About 20-25% of pregnancies end in miscarriages. That fact is not comforting. Frankly right now I wish it was the most unique oddity know to man. That my very personal pain would not be so easily equated to your cousin, friend from high school or you. That my situation would be special and my trauma
They are not quick. It's a process. What happens at home may not be it. You think it was bad enough, but it's not always over. I spent almost 3 hours at the doctor's office waiting for confirmation of what my heart already knew. Then they tell my body didn't take care of everything.
They are expensive. It costs more to not have a baby than to have one. Insult to injury.
They don't stop the world. I went to work Wednesday and today. (blogging break. Carsyn is naked in her bed. World doesn't stop.)

Tony has been so sweet. He is being strong for me and I need it. I've pretty much have been teetering on the edge for 3 days and he's holding on so I don't crash.

More reality. I'm not done. Technically I'm in the middle of a miscarriage. I go to the hospital in the morning for an out patient procedure. So I reserve the right to add or change my thought on miscarriages tomorrow. After my miscarriage is over.

Happy note...getting highlights in my hair on Sunday night.